I went into town with Rob.
Glasses shopping. Kind of weird, eh? I still can't really believe it. The worst part was when I felt such a strong urge to buy some chocolate peanuts that I dragged him into a sweet shop and bought some. I go in there alot with my friends and the woman always says hello and smiles and talks to us. But when I went in there with Rob I smiled and said hello but she stared at me and for the whole 8 minutes that we were in there nobody said a word. I glanced at Rob and he looked so unbareably uncomfortable that all I could do was smile apologetically at him. I got out of the shop and said to Rob:
Me: God that was awkward... she usually talks when I go in there with my friends
Rob: Ah well have you ever been in there with a boy before?
Me: Noo... but then again when I'm in town with a boy I don't tend to take them into sweetie shops
It was my Mum's idea to go glasses shopping and she is such a sneaky cow (I really don't mean that, I love her for it!) that when Rob came round to get his wallet from our house (he'd left it behind the day before) and my brother was out at college my Mum announced her big idea to all of us and I almost choked on my hot chocolate.
I felt kiddish - and not just because I dragged him into a sweet shop - because it had been my Mum who suggested it. I wanted to die right there and then, although I'm really glad I didn't. I just wish something could happen between us which wasn't provoked by my Mum.
And also about feelings... I don't think I want to go out with him, not yet anyway. I almost feel as though I want to talk to him on a friend scale, nothing more than that. I think he values me more as somebody to talk to rather than a potential girlfriend and that makes me feel pretty important. What's the point in having a girlfriend anyway when you can't tell them anything? We talked over the two hours that we were in town and I felt that he really opened up to me. I tried not to be too pushy or act too surprised when he told me some pretty damn personal stuff, stuff that I can't even imagine having to go through in my life.
Maya xx
