I haven't written in here for so long... agh, so much has happened! Basically me and Matt's falling-out got so bad that we weren't even speaking to one another. Or rather... I wasn't speaking to him.
But then yesterday I got him to phone me. I was fed up of me hating him to be honest. We made up luckily anyway. The day before I had sent him quite a horrible email and when I spoke to him on the phone he said through gritted teeth that it had really pissed him off. I don't blame him. I said alot of harsh things although it was my friend who actually typed it (long story) but I don't want to put the blame on her.
I'm so glad all the hate is over. It was more stressful to hate him than to be friends with him and in the end I told him that I couldn't even remember why we had fallen out. I'm glad he's forgiven me even though he was the one asking for forgiveness. I said to him, "No! I'm the one that needs forgiving, not you!"
He knows where he stands this time aswell. I was being unfair to him, keeping him hanging by a thread. I didn't want to lose the fact that he was in love with me. It was pretty flattering even though I use to yell at him about it. But this time I've told him that no, it's not going to happen. And it's not just him who needs to learn that, it's me too.
Maya xxx
