Matt's gone.
Not dead gone, I mean he hopped back onto his train and vanished into the sunset.
It was really hard for me not to cry. My eyes actually watered but I held it in because Rachael was there.
Tamara had gone home at half past 12 so me and him got some time alone for the first time. We walked around a bit, talking and well... just talking really. I still couldn't believe that he was there and I still can't quite believe it now!
We had to meet Rachael because she wanted to say goodbye to him before he left, although she ended up tagging along to the station aswell. The station was fairly busy and I almost felt as nervous about him leaving as I did with him arriving yesterday! I felt really emotional when the train pulled into the station. It was like finding your soul mate (ok maybe "soul mate" is too strong...but we'll see) and then having to say goodbye to him the next day. He dropped his bags before he got on the train and gave me a really big hug and.. and... a kiss! Ok.. two. On the cheek. I guess he thought anywhere else would seem a little forward (if you know what I mean). Rachael's expression was a bit like: O__O < that when he did it though, which was pretty funny. Then she said, "kiss her on the lips!" and Matt said, "no, we're still working on that!" and grinned at me.
Then he gave her a hug (grrr, but I'll let him off since it was a quickie) and he got onto the train. It was like the tiger that you found abandoned as a cub, that you raised and fed and became best friends with and then having to send it off into the wild when it's old enough and watch it sadly walk away from you. Well it sort of wasn't quite like that but I don't know any other ways to explain it.
I feel all weird... like unwhole and really lonely. I was with him for 2 days, 15 and a half hours in total if you add up the hours. I felt so good when I was with him, like I wanted the whole world to see us. I'll have to go back to MSN and phone calls now but it won't be the same.
I want to see him again and he says he'll try and come down when it's my birthday (which is soon!)
Maya xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
