So, I was talking to my boyfriend on the phone last night.

~Ok, I'm fed up of typing out "boyfriend" every time so I'm just going to call him by his name, Matt~

Anyway, we were talking for about two hours (again) before he went really quiet and said, "There's something I have to tell you..."

The rest of the conversation went a little bit like this:

Matt: *goes quiet* There's something I have to tell you...
Me: *gets excited* Oh tell me, tell me!
Matt: It's about me and Rachael(*1)...
Me: *all excitement drains away* Oh...right...is everything okay?
Matt: Well *clears throat* I think that I might... umm...
Me: You might what?
Matt: I might... have... feelings for her

*awkward silence*

Me: Ooh... that's... nice?(*2)
Matt: I don't want them though. I want them to go away because I love you(*3)
Me: Right...
Matt: It's just these last few days I've been talking to her on MSN and... you know...
Me: *says nothing*
Matt: Are you still there?
Me: *fights the urge to hang up on him*
Matt: Hello?
Me: *through gritted teeth* Yeah? What?
Matt: Oh, good... umm... I'm sorry

*JEALOUSY AND ANGER POSSESSES ME AND I WANT TO HURT HIM AND KILL HIM AND SHOOT HIM AND CAUSE HIM IMMENSE PAIN*

Me: Listen, it's fine
Matt: *sounds surprised* Really?
Me: Sure, it's fine. I guess it's fair really anyway
Matt: What do you mean?
Me: Well I fancy Rob, don't I? So I guess it's all fair now!(*4)
Matt: Oh... yeah... cool...

*1 - A friend of mine who I introduced to Matt about 5 months ago, before we started going out. I don't really like her at the moment though because she keeps telling lies and after a while lies get annoying...
*2 - NOT. I felt like crying. Well almost. Really though, what else was I meant to say?
*3 - Emphasizes on the you
*4 - I was tired and pissed off and I really didn't mean to say it...

So there we have it. I can hear the words "two wrongs don't make a right" ringing in my ears. I shouldn't have said that but how dare he fancy Rachael. He only likes her because she's thinner and prettier than me anyway. But Matt is the kind of person to... I don't know... act on his feelings?
And I know, I know... I do like Rob which is very bad but he looks like Sawyer from Lost and my Mum fancies him too for Gods sake! It's a little girl crush really cos he's too old for me and he would never look twice at me so really, it's like fancying a celebrity (and I know, I've said that before but nevermind.)

Ahh man... am I overreacting over all of this?

Maya xx