Hey every one its Tamara ... i know i know ...i havent been online writing my random stuff that half of yoy dont want to read anyway but yea... i hve been to busy *cough cough * ...i was suposted to be packing and stuff but i was pretty much just lying on my bed listing to music and blocking every thing out .... i move house today *sigh* once again i have to leave my friends behind and start over ...i lost count i think this is the 8th time maybe 9th .
i start my new school tomorrow its realy big . the problem is that every one is going to know each other from primary and i wont know any one ... i geuss it could be a good thing a chance to start over and be a difrant person ...but on the down side i have to find a friendship group or i will be alone ... theres only four girls in my form katie ,katie , some one and the other girl i can only remeber the two katies names ...ohwell i'll meet them all on monday
ive also been told that they wont bother to give me a time tabel seeing as its so close to the end of the year... i just have to follow one of the students around and shaddow them [litraly i will be a shaddow]
i was given my new planer and stuff last week and i got my new uniform yeasterday im so nervous
im going to miss maya and bibo they were my closest friend {litraly ...we lived on the same street... we were also best mates]
im crying now ... i just want them to be with me ... my mum will be here soon to take me to my new house at least i have my music i can listen to .
i nearly cryed on my last day of school every one signed my t-shirt and my form tutor gave me a box of choclates ... i never thought i would say this but im going to miss it there...
im going to miss the noise
and the way every one knew my name {not in a good way but atleast they knew me...even if they did tease me]
im going to miss the libry
and the routine we had ... every morning we would meet out sid english have a picnic then when first bell went we would all go off to our difrant forms and i us- sorry im blabing on
basicaly im going to miss my old life alot because everything is changing . some times i wish i could go back to being little again to when everything was smiple and my mum and dad still loved each other .
another thing that annoys me is that one of my friends *name is cencored* [maya and bibo you know who] is slgging off my mum and saying stuff like why dosnt she understand that its easier for every one if you just stay here and why dose she have to be so stupid ...and your mum needs commen sence {blah blah blah} and yea ITS NOT AS SMIPLE AS THAT theres alot of stuff you dont understand and if it was as simple as that yes i would live with my dad so i could see you guys BUT ITS NOT so dont come up to me slagging MY mum off and then wondering why the hell i storm off !
*takes deep breath * okay im calm but yea if you want to slag off my mum at least say it to her face . you know your as bad as Bucket some times [note bucket is the nick anme of a girl i truly dislike ]
*looks up* Did i realy write all that .... i better stop now...
sorry i still got more to say but will save it for another rant
sorry about me blabing on and on i had to get that off my chest
gonna miss you maya
xXTamaraXx
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We'll miss you too^^ but at least you have a whole range of new guys to choose from... we're stuck with...Harry and.... people ... not that theres anything wrong with Harry but... he's a bit hairy... you know 0_0
*changes subject* Well we'll see you over the summer 
and you have to teach us how to surf
Maya x
