The Blog Of Randomness

My god, it's been almost a year since anything was last posted in here. I guess an update is in order.

Firstly, Rob turned out to be possessive, jealous and controlling so I broke up with him last month. Sometimes when the bad overrides the good you have to step back and wonder why you're still taking it all.

My brother seems a lot better. He's joined a band and got in with a different crowd and isn't drinking and smoking as much (although he is still drinking a bit, idiot). The band have been playing gigs almost every week, and their MySpace page has over 30,000 views. Pretty neat, eh?

Ahh what else has happened. It's actually incredibly hard to sum up a year in a few paragraphs.

I'm starting college next week though. This is a big thing for me. I always doubted whether I'd be able to get myself back into the educational system, so only time will tell if I can cope with it. I'm feeling optimistic though and I'm actually looking forward to going.

I got an A* in one of my GCSEs. This is actually amazing since I had no teachers or funding or anything like that. I think it proves that even people who are taught at home can pass exams and do just as well as those that are at school. So eat that Government and non-believers!

Hope everyone else is well!

I'll try to get Tamara to blog an update post on her life too.

Maya xxx

A lot of stuff has happened since I last blogged. I don't know where to start so I'll just close my eyes and type lots of things and hope for the best.

1. Rob announced his undying love to me (I kid you not!) and now we're happily all lovey dovey which is wonderful and I feel like dying with happiness. But I won't.

2. I got a job. I get paid to stick my hands into bread machines and stab crumbs with a very sharp knife.

3. Christmas! I know that's not really happened since I last blogged but I'm still excited about it, so you know...

4. My tutor said my coursework was brilliant and I think she loves me (: yay?

5. I can't think of anything else but I swear a load of stuff has happened.

6. I got short term memory loss? I seriously can't remember anything that's happened now.

7. Oh! Oh! I went to a Halloween party with Rob, Tamara, Stacey, Lucy and my brother. It was rubbish. But the chinese afterwards was good. And Rob slept over! And so did Tamara (: very fun night. We watched about a godzillion dvds.

8. I dyed my hair brown. And got red and purple highlights to put in it.

9. I met Rob's Mum.... very scary.

10. I put on loads of weight so now I weigh as much as this Swedish guy I use to know.

Eventful couple of weeks. And now I'm stuck in my room blogging *ahem* I mean doing coursework...

Maya xx

Right so today i met up with maya we walked to town and walked around we bought a pack of playing cards and went and sat in a field playing card games. We had a laugh.
Then we went home and made supanoodles the sun set tonight was amazing. listened to greenday in the car on the way home.

xXxTamaraxXx

The Little Girl and the Wolf

by James Thurber

One afternoon a big wolf waited in a dark forest for a little girl to come along carrying a basket of food to her grandmother. Finally a little girl did come along and she was carrying a basket of food. "Are you carrying that basket to your grandmother?" asked the wolf. The little girl said yes, she was. So the wolf asked her where her grandmother lived and the little girl told him and he disappeared into the wood.

When the little girl opened the door of her grandmother's house she saw that there was somebody in bed with a nightcap and nightgown on. She had approached no nearer than twenty-five feet from the bed when she saw that it was not her grandmother but the wolf, for even in a nightcap a wolf does not look any more like your grandmother than the Metro-Goldwyn lion looks like Calvin Coolidge. So the little girl took an automatic out of her basket and shot the wolf dead.

(Moral: It is not so easy to fool little girls nowadays as it used to be.)

Maya xx

He's ripped out my heart and left me to bleed
She Betraided me and stabbed me in the back
It's not two timing as he wasn't dating me - but i loved him and he told me that once he had feelings for me ....argh! she was at my birthday i was telling her how i love him she already knew any way...but she didn't even tell me they'd be dating since fridayi'm so hurt.....

xX Tamara Xx

Oh, my first post in weeks and what is it about? Walls.

Basically, the walls in my room are bare and because the wallpaper is cream-coloured then there is quite a noticeable blank space. I was thinking of putting posters up but alot of the posters these days are cheesy and also they might not look right against the cream colours (God, I'm so picky).

So I was thinking artwork. Reasonably priced but really nice and something that doesn't look too adult. Also it has to be something that I won't get sick of looking at. Oooh, oh and it has to be colourful, or at least something worth putting up on a teenagers wall.

Any ideas?

Maya xx

Okay Please tell me i woke up in another universe today - because nothing seems to make sence to me today. 2+2 could = 5 with the way things are going. We just got a new depty head at school and i think the power is gone to his head We are no longer allowed to wear coats at school. i mean non uniform tops - i understand but coats! what if it rains! Sam had his conforscated WTF!? also the school bells have been switched off. thats right no bells between lessons and seeing as there are no clocks in the calss rooms who to know when were ment to leave for next lesson or for the end of school.Just because they annoy him and the way he teaches it drives me crazy! i mean argh! it just makes me so mad! he treats me like i'm 2 years old !!!! i think he's well i hope he'll read this coz i have a message for him Lalalalalalalala! I'm not listing! and i don't give a damn if i fail my maths GCSE! so you can STFU! And he told me off for wearing converses! well that was the final straw from now on i'll give him hell i don't care if karma gets me back for it because it will be worth it . I'll start arguing back with him i'll do anything i can within my power - sorry i'm a little mad stupid systematic schools

xX Tamara Xx

Went on a school trip to the theatre to see Othello proformed by Frantic Assembly. it was amasing Shakespear really relates to the moden day espesialy when the actors are dressed like chavs! it's set in a pub in northen england with the odd F word thrown into the origanal script was brillent even the bitchy girls enjoyed it they couldn't belive it was shakespear when they got out *Laughs* the teacher had to tell them that it was.

on the other hand that ment i had to leave The guy i like and a friend to deal with the two timing bitch who was once formaly known as our friend not good - he'd kill her and the guy she is dating as they two timed both him and my friend. it makes me so mad Lets just say she won't be invited to my birthday party.

The next day i have a full out arguement with my mum i left for school in tears in what can be discribed in a less than perfect day

My 16th in two days but i'm not exactly excited about it - no idea why it's just not anything special you know what i mean?

The guy i like my friend and maya are coming to my party so it should be good

I'm so pissed of with Ashely right now he used me to win a bet with his best friend which he swears was never made ! and his best mate is also really pissed off two A. he knows not of any bet and B. he can't belive he'd hurt me in such a way so Argh!!! basicly This is all i know what is going on but it has somthing to do with him pretending to like me and then asking his best mate how i feel about it (we were discussing it any way) and when he told Ashely what i said he lost the bet dispite me giving him permision so confuzzled there was also alot of swaering going on

Got Told by a boy at school i have a peircing stare and it makes him feel uncoforable Lol

So yeah a little confused with life right now i think i'm standing on the celing

and sam said to me in maths : Every ones changed again ( just totaly out of the blue) i was like Changed how? ....no answer

my maths teacher makes no sence he jumps from one topic to another compleatly diffrent one half wat through solving a problem i mean WTF?

xX Tamara Xx

PS Sorry I left it on a kinda random note

OKay Right alot of you are going to be wondering what the hell This is all about - well actualy so am i .

Today in my drama class we were set a task . Now i'm not sure if non drama students will know this work Proxemics (May be spelt wrong and no isult to intellegence ment i honestly had no idea of this word before i started learning drama) Basicly Proxemics means the space between actors or objects to create Relationship/status Between them . for an example Some one towering over someone eles will show that one over powers the other.

Anyway- we were given the task to explore proxemics but we were not alowed to use actors instead we were given two chairs and told to use only proxemics to show the status between them .

Unfortunntly our teacher wasn't anticipating on us Turning it from an innocent task into somthing much more dirty. *Laughs*

Never stack chairs
0.o thats just a one of the things the boys did And if you don't get that your too young

So yeah . i'm never going to think of chairs in the same way .

xX Tamara Xx

My bass lessons have been going well. I've learnt so much. Rob is a brilliant bass teacher and I told him he should do it professionally but he said he'd get annoyed by the little kids so there's that idea out of the window. He's really patient and doesn't smirk when I mess up (which happens quite a lot). He's teaching me several songs; House of Cards (Madina Lake), Feel Good Inc (Gorillaz) and Roses for the Dead (Funeral for a Friend). He even spent ages writing out some tabs for me and showing me some string changing exercises which I can't seem to get to grips with. I want to get my own bass guitar so I don't have to keep using my Dad's but I don't have any money at the moment. I said that to Rob and he said that when he gets his new bass then I can have his old one. I was like "HAVE?" and he was like "HAVE!" and I was like "HAVE!!" and well whatever, you get the point. I told him I'd give him money for it though because even though I would LOVE to have a free bass, I would feel tremendously bad about it, since he's living off benefits and stuff (although I think his Mum is treating him to a few things now she's back).

There's Roses for the Dead. The guy in the video actually looks alot like Matt, apart from the nose. He has the same hair and lost-lamb look on his face though.

Maya xxx